TOday was my first paper... hmm.. though made a few silly mistakes, still wana thank GOd for bringing me thru'. WHen i felt nervous, I would jus think of where God is gonna place me years down the road, i will then realise that my life is not jus about this exam.. and that really brought peace into my heart... Before we went in to the exam hall, J, V and me prayed.. i felt prompted to pray individual prayers for 'em. When i ended the prayer, J actualli asked if she could pray for me.. i was really glad.. glad to hear her pray, gld to see her speaking to GOd. I guess i need to settle certain things within myself and be able to love her wholeheartedly again. I was blinded to the fact that J actualli shows alot of physical affection to me (like out her arm round mine,etc), i have neglected that that cld be her love language and since it isn't mine, i jus felt that the friendship no longer mattered. Y remarked that J was more touchy with me and it made me think. Thank God for revealing, Lord help me to trust and love her with your love.
Went tution.. was late, and actualli forgot to tell K.. when i called him, the boy actually said, he saw a pic of me in his mind under stress.. haha... so cute huh.. cld it be vision? :P When i met him, asked him if he was still praying and he confessed that he hasn't.. haha... guess children will struggle with time with God too.
When i was on my way home, ZL called me, i tot sth happened in his family, so i returned the call when i got home. I thank God for blessing me with this brother.. His faith really encourages me... for now, his dad made him promise not to go church cos of having to stay back a year.. however when he tok to me, he jus sound so certain that God has a reason for even allowing him to stay back and he was so confident that he will not compromise his walk with God. He has also been updating himself with the Subzone matters and he knew what happened on sat. I am really touched by the gestures of this bro, he actually said he was prompted to call me.. and he called jus to find out how i am. He was even able to identify with me on feeling the burden of the fellow believers.. i am really blessed by him, cos in the midst of his struggles, he still cared for the family in christ, he still care for his fellow cell friends, tho' he may not be a leader, i noe he too wans to build the house of the Lord, before his own. Even if today as i serve and only manage to reap this one brother who loves God, i jus feel that it's worth it. I must remember to keep this brother in prayer.. this brother who told me that he wants to be different to be someone who can express love to his father and go against social norms. God i pray you will continue to use him and prepare him even now, for ur ministry ahead. Thank you brother, tho' u aren't here physically with us, u are here spiritually with us and it means so much to me, that support, makes me noe that i am not fighting the race alone. THanks!
The weekend has been tough... many things took place.. din give me a chance to come before you God...i need to hear from u.. lead me as i lead ur pple.. annoint me, so that 5 mins that i spend with ur children now, will be even better than hours i used to spend, jus cos i am annointed and used by you.i thank you that u gave me strength to hold on, even tho' at times it seem tempting to jus lose a little temper, give up jus a little... i noe Lord u have sustained me.
1Corinthians 13:4-13:
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. Love really isn't easy... especially love is not self seeking, love is trust, protects, hmm... guess everything else...Most of the time when relationships/friendships sour or face conflict, it's most of the time cos pple go in wanting to recieve rather than give. If all of us go into a r/s giving.. it will be so different. Help me to give as You give!
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