| Saturday, April 22, 2006 |
| disappointments...nah.... |
When i finally set myself to update you.. i lost the entry just like that and the message that appears is "page lost/deleted".. and for a while, i couldn't visit your home.. tho' for a moment i vow not to update you.. you have become irresistible for today..
Today.. i got ready chee cheong fun to bring to my tuition kid.. i left home.. realised i forgot my hp... went back.. got it... left home and after walking a reasonable amt of distance, i realised that i forgot the....CHEE CHEONG FUN... i was so afraid the Kai would be disappointed.. i went to the nearby food place.. where i got my CCF from this morn.. but it's sold out... i had no choice but to settle for three other kinds of kueh there.. hoping that the variety will make up for the disappointment. got curry puff, soya milk..
God was good... the morning traffic often makes it hard to get a cab.. from experience.. but i uttered a prayer.. "in jesus name".. and came along a mercedes cab.. God really gives in abundance. (p.s. dad insisted that i take a cab.. cos he can't send me.. pple who don't know me well will probably think i am a spoilt brat.. but i really did reject his offer rather vigorously..ahh..)
Reached Kai's place.. he was disappointed .. yet happy.. i did not deduct his stars in redemption of the kuey.. cos.. well.. he wanted chee cheong fun. He was happy..
kai: the food that you bring to me just tastes nicer..
me: maybe cos it is linked to rewards?
I realised that i do not like to disappoint children.. can't imagine what it would be like when i have my own... hmm.... |
posted by raethelamb @ 7:06 PM  |
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| Thursday, April 20, 2006 |
| routine in the midst of uncertainties |
Mel likes to sit in crowds/public places alone, plugged into music, entering into another world away from the crowds. The contrast and irony of being alone in the crowds just gives me a moment of escape. Yet not for too long.. but just enough to find the attention needed for work..
Happiness in the midst of this exams period.. =)
Your grace is sufficient for me and your strength made perfect when i am weak.
hmm... dinner later by myself.. heh.. far east toast? Ghim moh herbal chicken? yummie... :P |
| posted by raethelamb @ 11:40 PM |
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| Wednesday, April 19, 2006 |
| Friends... A gift from HIm |
People walk in and out of your life.. as years past, i become more skeptical about the notion of "forever friends". Today in the car, dad was telling me that mum was commenting that "XXX not really that close to me but only comes when she needs help". My parents- didn't expect them to even notice such things.. Dad says that he assured mum that even if i allow pple to take advantage of me.. that i have my reasons and that i will still earn and not lose my character.
"the meek will inherit the kingdom"- this is the verse that always assures me to be more giving.. sometimes i am not really as giving as what pple percieved me to be.. the struggle within me is just not spelt out.. but i guess i want to grow in character and constantly i asked the Lord to help me to not be calculative.
Uncle passed away.. and it seems that he faced difficulty in raising money for his funeral.. that his friends at his death did not acknowldge him and turn their backs to him.. makes me wonder if i die, who will truly cry for me.. for these are the pple i have impacted and left a legacy in.
FRiends.. ha... they are a gift.. but what mum sae really made me wonder if the friends ard me are there cos i can give them that security and meet those needs.. are there those who wants to love me and give to me?
It's strange how some people can become cold overnight.. makes me feel that relationships are transient.. but You are different YOu are faithful even when i am faithless.. where can i find someone like you..
It used to be my dream that in every stage of my life that i bring a friend back to HIm.. i thank God for using me and may i continue to be that bridge.. not asking for returns just to be remembered as a friend.
" i am hungry... ha... for good food.. " |
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